One more trip to North Carolina under my belt. This year was a year without Bill, a year without group rides and a different year all around.
8 people braved the trip, and while we all stayed in the same house, we all did our own thing. That ended up being good for me becuase that meant people actually rode with me. It also meant our group of 4 had a lot of fun, lots of laughs, lots of exploring.
This past year of my life has been very different for me. Not having my dad has had me feeling a bit lost, especially during those times where I really need someone to talk to.
Changes in the real estate market have had my business doing it's ups and downs, while the last few months have had me working very hard for what will hopefully be fruitful months to come.
Changes in my personal life have been on-going. . . . .things that were once very important to me seem to need re-evaluating with respect to importance now. My life is built around others, I am on this earth to give to others, to enhance other's lives, to put other people ahead of myself. This is how I've been for 40 years. And over these past 40 years that train of thought has led to a lot of heart ache. Maybe it's time to change that way of thinking? Maybe my life should be a little more about ME and a little less about others. I probaly care TOO much anyway.
2010 will be a life changing year, that's for sure. I just have to figure out how to make that life change a GOOD change for myself.
One day at a time.